yamanai ame da neeee

Sunday, January 29, 2006

'Innova ah what's that? Is it a jc?'

Thanks to those words i didn't enjoy yesterday at all.
Sat at a corner and kept on tearing.
What made it worst was that no one cared.

This just really sucks man.
Why can't they just leave it for once?
I know i shouldn't hate my family but sometimes they bring it upon themselves. really.
Hai.. i feel so shit now..!

Couldn't believe the relieve i felt when we left my grandma's house..
was sooo grumpy all the way back home.
and my sis still dares to ask why.
I wonder if she was just acting dumb or just really ignorant to people's feelings.

3:43 PM

Friday, January 27, 2006

today was really crap.
as in school...
felt terrible and was freezing to death in the LT... turned out i got fever cough and flu..
hai... i have to write a love poem.. HOW?!
i have completely no amount of romantic cell in my body.. shall write something bad abt love..
hahah..
and i was made to read this poem with onomatopeia(or smth like tt) hahah...
and it was like
'Bang boom!' and 'Cling, clang' and stupid noises throughout the whole thing..
the teacher said she doesn't feel the noise at all when i read.
hahah.. in the end my friend saved me by telling the teacher tt i was sick :)
heroin hahah.. and she had to read it for me in the end.. poor thing.

what's wrong with me?
new year i sick chinese new year ALSO sick :(
ah well... i don't care i'm still gonna eat like i usually do during CNY..
don't care don't care.
What doesn't kill you makes you strong! (right?)

the IJ celebration wasn't much of a looker.
regrets not ponning school... could have seen mrs huang :((((
oh well.. still went back to sn in the end.. fell asleep in the cab..
felt terrible (agn) was drowsy and my nose was like gonna drop off.
went to see dance prac.. talk to rachel ng.. and SURPRISINGLY, we had lots to talk abt.
dunno why.. think i have learnt to appreciate people who talks the same way as me.
hah.
told her abt JC and i could really connect to how she felt abt suddenly feeling stupid and that it's impossible to get into some dream jc..
she's taking TEN subs. poor girl...
results coming out on the 10th..
tml is reunion dinner.. i hope no one mentions anything altho i know its impossible.

burning fever now.
my stupid sister lah..pass to me then in the end she got well and i fell sick.

7:52 PM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Today while we were running some very irritating girl came and talk to me and then
i pointed the 3 fingers (whatever sign. you know.)
and she asked me
'why are you so rude?'
and because i was out of breath i went...
'haha erm... dont talk to me when im running lah.. no breath alr'
OMGGG
i bet she thinks im pointing my middle finger
:((((((((((((((((
i can't be bothered to explain to her though cause
1. I dont really want people to know what it means anw.
2. I don't like her so maybe its better if she thinks i was being rude to her.
3. I can't be bothered and is too lazy to explain abt anythin they don't know already.

yep.

anw, this moe letter shit is giving me a hard time.
i'm getting nervous attacks now lah.
hate this hate this hate this.
6th? 15th?
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

6:46 PM

Friday, January 20, 2006

today was a nice day...
jogged in the morn 7 rds =0
then.. erm.. had lessons.

WENT BACK TO SN!!
drilled the yellow badge ppl...
they were not bad.
hm.. thats all.
going out with matong on tues!!!!
can't wait :)

8:36 PM

Thursday, January 19, 2006

4 unity barbeque on 5th feb sunday!!!
everyone please come!!!

hhaha today's chinese was funn
but i ALMOST got forced to tell them my blog.
close shave. hahha..
i kept insisting that its smth they dont wanna see.
luckily they didn't insist. phew...

anw, didn't have pe today!!!
but had to run taf. 5 rds.
horrible shit lah... and the taf is EVERYDAY ok.
i'm gonna die.

6:49 PM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

today pe.

i ran 2.4

omg.

i can't believe it ok! arghhh.
then odac we ran like 2 rounds ard this teletubby hill and its like 500m per round.
so i ran 3.4 today.

omg.
i'm amazing.

tml i got taf lah.. AND pe.
i heard its EIGHT rounds every taf session..
and 6 rounds for pe AGN.
why... why me?

8:09 PM

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

hahaha.....

guess what..while walking home.. i met Xinrong. again.
nvm that, while we were talking outside sunplaza...
we met.. TIFFANY AND TOY!!!!
omggggg... so exciting right!!
hahaha i think we talked for like 2hrs or smth!
so fun!! the sembawang ppl.. hahah//
i love it... so nice.
lady luck was smiling down in all of us :)

and THEN. while me and xinrong were waiting for bus, we met.
guess who.
our os chinese oral teacher lah!!!!!!!!

hahaahh.. this is the funniest shit EVER.

7:15 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006

There's pe tml.

7 rounds.

My stomach is in chaos just thinking about it.

Good luck, Liting.

9:13 PM

Sunday, January 15, 2006

omggggggggg.

I hate econs. It's my first homework and i don't know how to do it.
I'm dead i'm dead i'm dead.
Can anyone help me?!
Econs lect tml and i hope everyone doesn't know how to do it cause i sure have no idea.
What affects the damn curve? argh.

Anw i was supposed to be doing my work like from 2 hrs ago.
I'm still playing neopets now.
I love making big bucks :)

1:15 PM

Saturday, January 14, 2006

hi ppl.. been missing for quite a few days.

Went back to sn the other day. Heard abt the sec ones and was seriously shock and disgusted. Actually i didnt feel disappointed cause i.. sort of knew they were like that. but i didnt know they were that bad.

Gosh. I couldn't believe my ears when i heard what happened ok. It was like guides gone wronger then ever. How come they're like that? I thought they would have lost some of their brattyness in sec one. but no, they brought it along and not only that, improved on it.
Ok at least some did lah.. hopefully there are a few in there who actually has enough sense to think abt other ppl and not only about themselves.
And looking at how gwee still supports them so much just makes me sick.
Hai.. don't talk abt them already they're pissing me off more then ever.

Anw, other then that bad experience, gg back to sn was great (it always is.)
saw cheryl. hahha.. quite funny lah.. and talked to the gray badges who are sec FOUR already. can't believe it. I feel so old can.
Haha.. went home with Tongtong Hilda and yanni.. talked alot.. slacked at macs for awhile.. reached home at 9 and hurry bath to watch tv.

Today went grandma's house to make CNY things..
All my cousins went back and all that.. hated talking about my os and how she kept saying 6 points very easy one! as long as all your humanities get A1 can already.
omg.. i almost went up to slap her. my chinese already 2pts already lah. what 6pts.
you didnt even get 6 still say until like so easy. the more she talked the more i felt like pointing my middle finger at her ok. wah lao. In the end it was sooo awkward cause EVERYONE knew that i WON'T do that well and i bet she knows it herself. Does she feel happy setting such high standards for me knowing well that i can't live up to it?
Does she feel glad that i'll just embarrass myself in the end?
wtf. sometimes i wonder what i did to deserve this.

10:15 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

yay... this is the 20th post of my blog!!!
everybody clap for me...
clap clap clap**

ok so lame.
today celebs outing..
nice. :)
had alot of fun talking.. watched family stone which is so freaking nice i tell you. pls go see it those who haven't.
its sooo touching and sweet and funny at the same time. and so sad also! omg.. i cried like dunno what shit can.. esp the mother parts.. i hate to watch shows where great ppl have to die :((((
go watch go watch.

I LOVE CELEBS!

8:24 PM

Sunday, January 08, 2006

lessons start on monday..
apprehensive and kinda looking forward at the same time.

i want to know what my sub's about..
start that monotonous beat of school life.

hai.. maybe i am a boring person.

12:27 PM

Saturday, January 07, 2006

been busy. orientation beat the shits out of me can. haha..
qt tiring.. think i cant get used to this school thing. usually no school is sort of wake up at 11 and sleep at 2!

ok hm.. what to say? i feel qt.. weird.
like i miss orientation but i also didnt really enjoy it.
dunno why.. as in my tribe ppl were qt not bad just tt i didnt really talk to them?
i dont know how to talk to ppl lah seriously. when was the last time i tried making friends?? pri 4? sec 1? omg. just couldn't fit in.. felt displaced.
in the old days we all sort of just knew each other!
i cant remb how i did it..
now i have to let everyone know who i am agn..
expose myself to them. erm you know...?
feel so insecure and self conscious..
gosh its really qt bad..
i say 'i love this' or 'this is so great'
and they really think i like it lah. how to talk to them?!
then i cant say 'very!' or.. i dunno. they dont seem to like it when i go oh my god.
wth. how?
and my friend doesn't know what's nipple ok. omg... i feel so embarrassed just typing it.
hahah and she ask me 'what's that?' am i supposed to explain?! hahah..!

ok yes ahem anw... ok actually i sort of know why i miss it but didnt enjoy it.
i liked it when we weren't that involved with our tribe ppl. like clan stuff lah.. and all the micco and walla thing. qt fun. until now the cheer's still stuck in my head.
walla you sexy you make me woo! hahah..
but hai..the making friends part really kills my spirit.
i just dunno how lah. what can i do?
i'm not anti social and boring ok! but i bet everyone thinks i am. shit lah.
i've nvr felt so alone in my freaking life as i can rmb it. wah lao.
and then i miss sn and tt just makes everything worst cause i cant help but feel depressed when i think abt it :/
i'm crazy. whats wrong with me??

hai..yest was the last day. during the disco time i couldnt wait for it to end.
my poor feet got stepped on so many times.
then aft that i didnt want to go home :/
cause of the songs. felt so warm and so.. touched.
seriously this is conflicting personalities man.
you're just the best i ever had..
couldnt help but go awww....
altho we're their only batch but aiyah still very sweet mah.
and then later when we left i sort of said bye to the hall and some ogl waved back.
hahaha she thought i was waving to her lah. hm... hahaha...

today we went back for cca fair. the gateway was floating in the air. nice.
my heart jumped a beat when i saw it even though its really got nothing to do with me anymore.
hai.. oh well i had my shares of scares in gateway.
anww.. met everyone. omg soooo nice i tell you.
talked and laughed. the company was great. everyone knows who i truly am.. i love that feeling and i miss it alot alot alot. i felt so relieved.. at least i still have friends who knows the real me.. laughs at my jokes. knows what i'm saying omg. i had no idea we had so much in common until i saw ppl who were so different. (namely, ppl in innova)
went to 4 u to take pics and i kept on tearing.. haha so dumb right? for a fleeting second i felt that i had my old life back again.
found my table with the funny face winnie drew for me.. we took nice photos.. talked abt all those lame crap we did there..
it was the best day of the past few month.
i love guides.
and i love 4 unity.

7:19 PM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

great great great
i just talked to winnie and she hai..
cried thinking about st nicks
oh noooo...
i feel like crying now.

i miss sn but most of all i miss all of you. :((((((((

8:11 PM

went back to st nicks yesterday. ate orange bowl and fried food! hah yest was fried day :)
i miss st nicks food.... tt day i ate this funny wantan mee and it tasted weird sticky and disgusting. hai. heard the mee goreng is horrible also :(

I'm sick for sn.
esp after reading other ppl's post. hahah..
yes schoolsick is definitely the word.

hai.. anw.. today we had to choose our sub combi and the women dont let me take h2 maths so i had to put 2 choices right? i put some history thing as 2nd choice lah! i cant believe it!how long have i not touched history???? i can't remb how it works! i want geog.. please give me geog. but if i dont take hist i'll have to take c lit.
hist is lesser of the two evils. hopefully they'll give me 1st choice.
please please please!

i miss saying the pledge. family dance. orange bowl. building my gateway. helping outdoor with shelter. fanning the fire. 4 unity. pissing gwee off. stoning in the den.

7:57 PM